I believe that if it’s anything vs. God… God wins. That most definitely includes me vs. God. So when I read something in the Word I don’t understand I do not try to play around with it until it fits my little ideas and possible misconceptions about God. I don’t want to try and ‘change’ God to fit my ideas, I want Him to change me that I would be in alignment with the truth of who He is. I want to take His Word as it is… and let myself be changed. I don’t want to twist His Word to feed misconception… I want to allow His Word to shatter them and fill me with truth. Which really spurs me on to know the Word… and to know God. Not just what other people tell me about Him… but what God says. To be washed with the very water of His Word (Ephesians 5:26), proceeding from His mouth (Deuteronomy 8:3). I want to fellowship with the Spirit (Philippians 2:1) that searches the deep things of God (1 Corinthians 2:10)… the same Spirit that dwells inside of me (John 14:17). The very Spirit that proceeds from the Father (John 15:26) has taken up residence inside of me (Romans 8:9). That does my head in a little bit…

I want to learn from God who God is… for who is a Teacher like Him (Job 36:22)? And He is holy… there is no-one like Him (Revelation 4:8). He alone can fully comprehend Himself (Isaiah 40:13)… so I want to know God, according to God. Now I am not disregarding the importance of being taught by others… I do believe that the fullest expression of the spirit of wisdom and revelation (Ephesians 1:17) is in a corporate context (1 Corinthians 13:9-10). Haha I once went through a stage where I was all “I am not going to read books about God other than the Bible!! Why should I learn from anyone other than God who God is??” God is so tender… He gently corrected me… I’m sure He delighted in my heart (Song of Songs 1:5), but all the same, I was a bit deluded… but His kindness led me to repentance  (Romans 2:4) He blesses me with so many people who reveal Him to me… whether they are preaching a sermon, the author of a book I’m reading, someone discussing the Word with me or simply a friend being a display of His splendour (Isaiah 60:21) just by being themselves.

But at the end of the day… I don’t want to live off other people’s revelations and encounters. I want my own… I want a personal history with God. I want my roots to go deep in Him. No amount of depth someone else has in the Lord will send my roots down deep. He’s coming and going to shake everything that can be shaken (Haggai 2:6)… knowing people rooted and grounded in His love (Ephesians 3:17) and the knowledge of Him doesn’t make me rooted and grounded. So I fast, I pray and I read the Word so that I can grow in relationship with God… and let that overflow into relationship with others… to spur other people to pursue God in their own lives. I want to be spurred on by others to go deep in God. I want to spur others on to go deep in God.

I want to learn from God who God is. I want to be one who chooses the one thing that is needed… to sit at His feet and listen to what He has to say (Luke 10:38-42). For surely He wants to make Himself known (Isaiah 65:1), and if only I seek to listen will He tell me great and unsearchable things that I do not know (Jeremiah 33:3).