I am going to a prayer meeting… :D

Posted On March 28, 2008

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This morning at work my manager was asking all us employees if we were doing anything exciting tonight. I shook my head along with most of the others… but inwardly was like “ooooh, I have prayer tonight!! Sa-weeeet!!”

Then she asked me again later… the same question… “Are you doing anything exciting tonight?” and I go, “No, just going to prayer…”

And she walked off and I’m left thinking… no, actually, these prayer meetings are the highlights of my week!! I sit there at uni or stand there at work and am hanging out for when I can LEAVE work or uni and get to prayer. YES, prayer is exciting!! (Weeeell, ok, it can also feel dry too… but when I step back and remember what prayer actually is… oh, it is exciting :D ) I get to talk to the Lord God Almighty, knowing that He hears my little voice (2 Samuel 22:7) and what I have to say matters to Him… because I matter to Him (1 Peter 5:7)… more than that, I am loved knowledge-surpassingly (Ephesians 3:19)!! I am going to go spend time sitting in a room singing and talking to the One who loves me… and I am EXCITED!! I am going to spend my Friday night partnering with God in what He’s doing on the earth… talking to Him and learning what is on His heart and standing in agreement those things… His good, pleasing and perfect will (Romans 12:2)… I am going to spend my night asking Him to do what is on His heart to do. I get to sit at the feet of God and listen to what He has to say (Luke 10:39)… and I am EXCITED about it!! :D I get to do that which I love to do… to gaze upon His beauty, seek His face and just enjoy being in His presence (Psalm 27:4). And I am excited about it :D

All that was on my heart… yet I didn’t sound too excited at all when I answered her. Why?? Fear of man. I was scared of her thinking less of me because I get excited about prayer… buuut I thought about it some more and was like… “yeh, well… sooo what??” Oh, that I would have the fear of the Lord… not the fear of man (Matthew 10:28). The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man (or manager….) do to me?? (Psalm 118:6)

Oh, I want to know His love still more and more… His perfect love that casts out fear (1 John 4:18)…

Soooo… next time she asks me if I’m doing anything exciting on Friday night… my answer will be a simple, “Yeh, I am… I’m going to prayer.” :)

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  1. katie

    Helen. It’s Katie Nelson from LAST SPRING when we did fitn track 1 (can you believe it’s been a year since we first arrived to ihop?… wow).

    Anyways, back to where I meant to start: Helen, I adore your blog.

    Adore is such a nice, happy, “precious” sounding word, which in some cases is accurate as i tend to smile so widely as i read your heart. But i am generally intensely convicted and provoked as i read your words and the meditations of your heart. You often so beautifully articulate the very things i am thinking/feeling/experiencing and your encourage me on to run after nothing less than the very fullness of what Jesus has made available to us on this side of eternity, even in the midst of the mundane routine!

    so i’m grateful for you and i’m grateful for your blog (as it’s my insight to you halfway around the world). :)

    Feeling you on that uni/BUT JESUS!! tension… when i started school in the fall (our fall), i was in distress before the Lord… “God, I have friends who get to spend countless hours before you in the Word and in worship day in and day out. And here I am with all these readings to do and exams to write, yadda yadda. They all get to go deep in the knowledge of You while i’m doing my studies!” The Lord spoke to my heart and said, “Katie, of all the places I could have set you for this season, do you trust that Harvard is where you’ll go the deepest in the knowledge of Me?” Dang, it cut me through. But I’ve been watching Him prove Himself faithful in that over and over and over again.

    So here’s to fullness, dear Helen. To running after our Beloved with everything, even during accounting or sociology class. Here’s to Truth Himself being declared in our universities — to watching a generation run into the arms of Jesus.

    Nothing less will do I reckon. :)

    Cheering you on in the spirit!
    Katie

  2. helen

    ohhh katie, you are dear to me :D i am blessed to have met you… one year ago, wow… hooray for FITN!!

    i will reply in more detail… sooo keep an eye on your inbox ;)

    and yep… nothing but the fullness!!

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