These days I am a newlywed, studying an overloaded semester online. Needless to say, I have been having less time in the Word, and to be brutally honest I waste the time I do have while I’m figuring out my new season and context. Lately I have been feeling condemnation that the Lord doesn’t like me as much, or doesn’t want to bless me as much as if I had been steady in the Word. I was starting to get weighed down and despising the season He has me in.

But last night I was talking to Him about it and He spoke so clearly,

“You not being in the Word doesn’t make Me want to bless you any less, but it does make you more susceptible to being swayed by the voice of the accuser.”

I’ve been buying into the lie that He doesn’t want to ‘bless’ me because I’m not in the Word. But I am doing damage to myself by not building myself up with His Word, the anchor of my soul. AND by not being in the Word I am letting myself become more susceptible to such lies.

He totally understands that I have a pretty crazy schedule right now, with many demands. And He also understands that it’s a totally new and different season, and I am still learning what my pursuit of Him can look like in this season. And He sees the bad choices I make with the time I do have gifted to me. But regardless of my pursuit of Him, His pursuit of ME remains unwavering and relentless. All He asks is that I be faithful with the time I do have. And then He can bless me with the sweetness of His presence and revelation when I’m in His Word.